When I have nothing to hold on to,
I hold on to music,
Which helps me to be unaware of
The abyss of existential absurdities.
I hold on to music,
Which helps me to be unaware of
The abyss of existential absurdities.
Wednesday 8 July 2015
Thursday 2 July 2015
Lost Speech of the Nature
I love closeness of the nature. I always thought the nature taught me something. I always thought the nature spoke to me. I always thought I could hear the nature's speech.
When the cool breeze caressed my face, I listened to it, to understand what it was saying to me. When I saw a lone white cloud in a large empty blue sky, I thought the cloud was smiling at me, rejoicing in its own solitude.
I realize. A new knowledge comes to me. I decipher, from the silence of nature itself.
It was an illusion. Nature is just dumb. It teaches me nothing. It does not have its own speech.
It is I who learns from the nature. It is I who speaks to me as if nature speaks. It was my speech that I was hearing all the time. Nature thus lost its speech in front of me.
I am relieved. No more outside speech I have to listen to. It is my speech; it is my own responsibility.
It is my own radical responsibility.
Sandeep,
Chennai,
2-July-2015.
When the cool breeze caressed my face, I listened to it, to understand what it was saying to me. When I saw a lone white cloud in a large empty blue sky, I thought the cloud was smiling at me, rejoicing in its own solitude.
I realize. A new knowledge comes to me. I decipher, from the silence of nature itself.
It was an illusion. Nature is just dumb. It teaches me nothing. It does not have its own speech.
It is I who learns from the nature. It is I who speaks to me as if nature speaks. It was my speech that I was hearing all the time. Nature thus lost its speech in front of me.
I am relieved. No more outside speech I have to listen to. It is my speech; it is my own responsibility.
It is my own radical responsibility.
Sandeep,
Chennai,
2-July-2015.
My New Tumblr Blog for Excerpts from My Readings
I have just created a new writing space for me. Here I'll keep posting interesting excerpts from things I read, which will include books, websites, papers, etc., and topics can be general to engineering to psycho-analysis. It can be Malayalam or English. Keep tuned if you think you'd be interested.
Link : http://sandeeppalakkal.tumblr.com/
Link : http://sandeeppalakkal.tumblr.com/
-Sandeep
Wednesday 1 July 2015
Evening At Kotturpuram Tree Park
I have lived in Bangalore a couple of years back. It was my lonely days. I loved Bangalore mainly for its small parks in some nooks and corners. After work, while I return to my room, I used to go to some park and spend some time there. People come there for evening walks. I go there with a book and read it. Those were some serene moments in my life. I remember reading Kafka, Sartre, etc. in parks in Bangalore. That was an exciting feeling. Exciting times too.
Chennai has less parks. But there are a few. There's one near my apartment in Kotturpuram: The Kotturpuram Tree park. The place was a waste yard a couple of years back and an organization, Nizhal, in collaboration with the Chennai Metro Corporation built this amazing park by planting trees and nurturing them systematically. Now it has a lot of trees and walkways for morning or evening walks. You can go and sit there and forget that you are in Chennai. The breeze coming from the nearby Adyar river cools down your body as soon as you enter the park.
I go there in the evenings for a walk or just to sit and look at the river to ponder upon the existential aspect of everyday life. There will be boats in the river rowed by people. Possibly they are from the Adyar boat club. Sometimes, I take some book with me to read. I'm reminded by those Bangalore days. Today, while I was reading, I took an occasional glance at the river. I felt that the top edge of the wall between me and the river was moving. Was it some kind of an optical illusion? I looked again. There you are! A snake slowly advancing along the net tied above the wall. My immediate reaction was, naturally, fear! Now I am not a child, but a grownup adult. I said to myself, calm down, it is just a snake and sits a few meters away from me. Instinctively, I looked around me, on the stone chair I was sitting and under it, to check whether there was a snake lurking around near me. Because I was so lost in my reading!
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